Kit Name: Lotuskit
Apprentice Name: Lotuspaw
Current Name: Lotuspaw
Kit Name: Lotuskit
Apprentice Name: Lotuspaw
Warrior Name: Lotuspool
Age: 6 moons
Breed: Ragdoll Mix
Personality: Lotuspaw, like most kits wants to have fun and make friends, though thanks to being bullied at a young age, her behavior has changed to more of a submissive, shy feline. She tends to shy away from others and just watch from the sidelines. She is a wallflower to say the least. Being bullied has made her suffer from an early stage of depression, where she'll hide in the den and not come out all day, and just slink into self pity and hate. Yet for those rare moments when a felines decides to try and get to know Lotuspool, really act like they care, they see a whole new side to her. A side that is passionate about the things she loves, how she loves it when the wind ruffles her fur. She's see's and feels the beauty most have forgotten. If once tries to befriend her after a few days she will open up to the fact showing her eagerness to play and be like the other cat's something she had always wanted. One can normally always find a smile on this female, she has a desire to be with others, yet she shies away when confronted.
Submissive || Meek || Passionate || Loyal || Depressed || Fun || Bashful || Wallflower || Intelligent
History:||The Legend Begins||
Lotuskit was born in the normal feline family, well a large normal feline family. It wasn't abnormal for some females to give birth to small litters, but it was a bit strange from two large cats to give birth to a single female. A female named Lotuskit. Her eyes were the most remarkable feature about her. She had thick fur soft, but none could deny the female was a bit larger then most would be at so little of an age. Most assumed she would become a fierce warrior, that her strength would be unlike the rest. Maybe they were right, yet maybe they were wrong.
As Lotuskit began to grow, it became quite clear she was indeed thicker then the rest, not meaning fur wise. She had some chunk on her, though her parents told her she was a gift to behold and beauty they would say. If only they knew how that little nickname of their would soon become Lotuskits demise. As the moons passed Lotuskit was fully talking and waddling about the camp a bit. She was a bit self conscious at first, unsure if the others would like her. Yet as kits most didn't know how to be hurtful, all that mattered at that age was having fun and making friends. Lotuskit felt alive and truly happy with others around her having fun and sharing in their laughter. What a life kits have, how it's all fun and games. No worries at all. One could nap whenever and play were ever. Yet they were all eager to be apprentices and go see more of this wondrous home.
||I'll Make A Warrior Out Of You||
Finally the day came and the kits were old enough to become apprentices. Yet it was around this time, that tings have taken a worse for Lotuspaw. Most soon caught wind of their mothers gossiping about Lotuspool, as she was bigger then the others. Thick wise and sometimes fur wise. Lotuspool never seemed to mind, so why did the others? Yet the rumors spread like wild fire amongst the kits. Some said the reason she was so big was that she at the others in her mama's belly. Or that since she lacked beauty she had to make it up in size. The rumors continued on, to the point some of the other kits avoided her. Lotuspaw couldn't understand, couldn't comprehend it. Weren't they all friends just moons ago? What changed what was so different? The sweet Lotuspaw was soon a subject to bullying. To some, they would say it wasn't a big deal kits were kits, but if they aren't the ones being bullied how could the understand? How would they know of the pain that came along with it?
Lotuspaw remained silent through the endearment of it all, the names, and how her mothers sweet remark calling her Beauty, no longer sounded as sweet when it came from the mouths of gossiping kits. Yet Lotuspaw didn't know what to do, she didn't want to be a burden and tell her parents her issues, she could do this on her own. She was an apprentice, she didn't need to whine and complain she was getting picked on. She was an apprentice, she had to learn to be tough with their remarks and show she was above it, that she could handle it. Just smile, she would tell herself constantly. Just smile, it won't hurt that bad. Don't feed into it, remember they were your friends at one time... Yet some days got the best of her, she would fack being ill so she could have the day off and hide in her nest. It was ahrd to be strong when all she wanted to do was fall apart. Some days were just harder then others, were the smile gets harder to make, and the tears can't be held back. Lotuspaw cried in her nest one those days, praying to Starclan to bring back her friends, to bring back the good ole times as kits, when beauty and vanity no longer matter. She yearned for those days. She'd do anything to have them back anything.
-to be continued more when roleplayed-
||Warrior Time||Not Yet A Warrior
Strengths: WallFlower Some would say this is a weakness, yet it isn't all the time. She can see beauty where most had forgotten it. She is able to look out in the clan and see the little details and understand them with ease. Bull StrengthLotuspaw maybe a bit chunky, but it all isn't ft, she has got some muscles under her fluffy fur. Her strength is quite impressive if she would ever use it. She tends to be submissive and just back away slowly. Yet when pushed enough, she is not afraid to Bull rush a cat and knock them off their paws. Lotuspaw has no desire to wound a cat, but if you push her enough, she'll push you right back.
Wall Flower || Bull Strength ||
Flaws/Weaknesses Self EsteemShe has incredibly low self esteem about her and her weight issues. She has grown to face the facts it is something she can never change about herself, and it's that fact that hurts her the most. She is hoping when they all get older, they won't be as judgmental. Yet with this she constantly finds herself second guessing herself, and making wrong choices that benefit others and not herself. She can be easily bullied into doing what others want. Wall FlowerShe is okay with being in the background, this makes a bit harder to work on her social skills, though she always yearns to be with others and talk and play, yet that time is not know. She knows that so her nature as such, she stays on the sidelines and watches, waiting for the day when she will be welcomed back.ClumsyLotuspool is not graceful at all. Her big paws and tank like body is still a bit new to her. She finds herself stumbling over her own paws and tends not to move very silent at all. She tends to be on the ground more, then on her paws. But she is slowly trying to learn how to work with her larger body.
Self Esteem || Wall Flower || Clumsy
Lotuspool has a weakness for any sweet cat. Once someone treats her nicely, she tends to follow after them a bit enjoying the company she has been denied of. It tends to freak others out and make them want space. But poor Ole Lotuspaw just wants a friend.
Lotuspaw adores butterflies, she is known for chasing after them... awkwardly. She never harms them. One of the greatest moments in her life was when a butterfly landed on her nose. She was pretty sure she could die happy that day.
unsure/mixed Feelings- likes a lot
Open For Note Roleplays <3
Curlpaw:He is my first friend and somehow a small action of him sharing a bird with me ended up with us becoming quite dear friends! I really enjoy his company a lot and some how we are making each other stronger and braver as well. With him I am pretty sure I could walk past those teasing clan mates of mine and not have a worry or doubt in my mind. I thank Starclan every day for him.
Jetpaw:I recently just met Jetpaw and wow, he isn't afraid to speak his mind, but there is something wuite brave about that and I do admit I am a bit jealous of that. Right now we are still getting to know each other! He talks way more then I do, but I don't midn one bit I enjoy listening and say my bit here and there.
Pallidstar: I am not sure about him, he makes me feel a bit uneasy as if there was poison behind that smile of his. yet he acts sweet and nice and I can't help, but assume it's some sort of ploy a trick. Not sure what else to think, but I'm going to try to be on my toes around him.
Bright blue eyes watched them, as they played about, she was finally allowed to play with the other kits, she would just have to wait for her name to be called before she could join in and run around with them. "Spiderpaw." The female called out and soon the black tom quickly jumped up and dashed in. Lotuspaw smiled all the more her tail flickering with excitement. ~I'll be next I know it~ She thought, a large smile on her face as only a few kits left. "Applepaw" The red female too jumped up all eager to play along. Oh how it looked like so much fun. They were wrestling and batting at each other, acting like little kits again. It was as if Starclan had finally answered her prays. Her she was, in a game with friends, or her soon to be friends! Lotuspaw could hardly believe it, she was finally accepted, finally part of the clan again. "Come on Icepaw!" The silver tabby laughed and grinned tackling the group as he too joined in. She was left for the last, oh she knew how the saying went, 'Save the best for last.' Lotuspaw knew it all to well. Her bright blue eyes watched them all and she couldn't help but smile and laugh along, even if she wasn't involved, but she would be soon. ~Any second~, she thought happily to herself, ~Any second and I will be out there with them. Just a little longer, just a little longer~. Little did she know, her name would never be called. Kits can be so cruel.